Why is it so suddenly awful?

I took a couple of weeks off, to go to (and photograph) a wedding and to spend days fixing the photos and duping. I thought it would be a good break from my line edit and bring me a fresh eye.

But, everything I read last night was just bad. Really bad. At this rate, I will be 110 before I give up and just submit it. I have four different beginnings and have edited the first chapters some twenty-seven times.

I am going to bed now. It is a busy week and perhaps I am reading someone else's book.

GRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The Writer's Guide to Character Traits

One of the most valuable books on my writer’s bookshelf is The Writer’s Guide to Character Traits by Linda N. Edelstein, Ph.D. Lately, I use it so much that it’s just sitting by my writing couch. I don’t think it has been reshelved in a month now.

Yes, currently I have a writing couch. It is necessary for me to spend time with my feet up. I never thought I would write in this position and it did take time for me to get used to it but that’s life and you get used to these things.

I originally purchased this book when I was working on Mysteries. Sections such as its analysis of Psychological Disorders can keep you on track with that murderer.

Currently I am using it for the chapter titled Child and Adolescent Types. Child Development, by age, is particularly helpful for Book #1 and two books down in my series I will be using Crises of Adolescence. Not that I don’t remember enough of that time in my life to get me through. It never hurts to brush up though.

Edelstein covers Love and Marriage, Physical Disorders, Occult Practices, Career Traits, Group Influences, Communication (verbal and nonverbal) and other Character traits.

And, beside all of this, you can finally find out just what is wrong with that weird nephew of yours in the chapter on Psychological Disorders.

Help from a Stuffed Bear

I am drawing up a loose outline for each of the other books in my proposed five book series and I keep going back to the thought that something is missing from Book one. This is stalling progress, as I just cannot get my head around what is missing.

In the beginning, my family was a big part of my original idea and we did a lot of brainstorming. Okay, it was not exactly “a lot” of brainstorming. There was a week or so of that and then they lost interest, but they were always willing to answer my questions and give input, as they passed by. Teenage boys, who are now learning what it is like to have a normal life, are busy. We took these guys from their mother three years ago, due to extreme abuse and they have a lot of catching up to do.

So, lately, I have kept my book pretty close to me, but yesterday I just had to talk it out. My husband is disabled; he has been on disability for over eighteen years now and spends a lot of time sitting. He is quiet when I am writing on my book as this is an important occupation for me, but he is there, if I need him.

I had come in from watering the garden and doing some yelling (I don’t do it a lot but as things get tighter and tighter and break and can’t be fixed, it is happening more.). I was angry because we have water leaks everywhere, inside and out, and they are not getting fixed. Then, I apologize and tell him “I’m sorry; I’m just frustrated by the state of the economy.” And, he says he understands because he feels bad he is not contributing enough.

I go back to my writing and outlining, until I turn to him and began telling him my problem:

Me: “I feel like I’m missing a main point in Book one. I have this search for an Aetite.”

Husband opens mouth

I interrupt: “And then there is Phineus, (my Antagonist for book one) who gives him a tracker.”

Husband says, “Ah…..”

I interrupt again: “Oh, and I have to tell you that he has this little creature who is his guide, and becomes his friend and he gives him a gift of the tracker and ….”

Husband just stares.

I continue: “And, at the end … (no spoiler)”

There is a long pause in the conversation as I figure out that I do have what I was afraid I do not have and that is a thread throughout the story.

“See, you are contributing.” I tell him.

His reply: “You could have figured that out by talking to a stuffed bear.”

The fun of it!!!

I started revising, and doing my outline, with renewed enthusiasm last night.

Yes, it is late to start an outline, but I love Stephen King’s advice, just write. So, I let the story take me where it may and then I go back and outline, and edit, and edit, and edit.

Since this is envisioned as a five book series, I need to plunge in the water now and outline the other four books. It is the only way I can make sure this, the first book, ends in the way it should.

I’m just happy this is feeling like fun again and not drudge work. I love the discovery process. Told you, long ago, that I’m a day dreamer and I love making up stories. So, I’m off to it.

Good day writing to you all.